HOW TO MEND UNEASY HEART

SILENT TREATMENT
How I hate the silent treatment. Never heard silence can be that loud, actually. I came back from my shop at around 10:30pm, took off my makeup, get a mattress and got ready to sleep in the living room. I saw my bed is quite full tonight. Actually its more like a silent retreat. I forgot what caused me this pain. Was it the remark he gave me about my business, or was it the little insensitive part of him during our Bazar Ramadhan trip today, or was it the RM39.90 elegant clutch discounted very cheap i asked for during our shopping at Parkson today? Either way, I forgot or want to forget about what happened. Tonight is going to be a very different kind of sleep for me, sleep with anger and frustration that has not a chance to be addressed and levelled with. Lets see what happened. 

Angelina Jolie ... The Angel of New Era....

Yes, she's beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, very very beautiful, has mesmerizing eyes and all that... No doubt about all that, but above all, I like her being a human, a humble yet different human being. To me, Angelina Jolie is not just a pretty face, she's a lot more than what people label her as. After many months reading all sorts of news and updates about her life with Partner Brad Pitt and kids, the most I love to read is her UNHCR work. I am not that familiar with that UNHCR thing either (like many other people), but she made me want to read and find out more about what UNHCR do, and what causes they support other than Refugee that Angelina is fully supporting. It's remarkable what she does, and has effect on people. She doesnt mind getting her hands dirty visiting refugee camps, talk to these people... and everytime she visits them, her facial expression tells the world that she cares, she has sympathy to all those suffering people she meets, she's not pretending at all. I love this woman 

JUST KIDDING - VERY FIRST YEAR... AND EXPANDING MORE

At the very beginning, it was hard and not many people are aware of our existance in the market. But now, we already have regulars and people starts to know us everyday. That's a very good thing. What we offer customers are : Very friendly services, mutual understanding between us and customers and the very best of all, we are very honest with our clients. I am proud to mention that we are going to open another branch after Raya Puasa this year. Instead of only 1 kiosk at the beginning of 2011, now we have 2 kiosks already, at the very same location. 

JUST KIDDING - Official start of a new chapter

JUST KIDDING

Location: 1st Floor Berjaya Megamall

(in front of Handz)

I started off this business simply for one reason :

I want to be able to spend more time with my sons, watch them grow and nurture them. My current paid job is a marketing job, which requires me to go outstations, attend meetings etc, which most of the time, I have to leave my children behind. 

Now JUST KIDDING have 2 kiosks, side by side. Because of the demand for baby gears are high, we are planning to take it to the next level, next year, if budget permits.

BABY AARON - 3 weeks old

We named him Tengku Aaron Zuhayr Abbas

Born: 23 May 2010 @ 6:54am

Weight: 3.69kg, Length: 50cm

My little honey is now 3 weeks old. These photos was taken when he was 2 weeks old.

Punye la susah nak berpantang dengan Mak Mentua. Bukan apa... masing2 suara ala2 macam loudspeaker, bila bercakap, punye lah kuat, baby asyik terperanjat je. Bila terperanjant, baby mengamuk, menangis. Bab2 tu, tak de lah plak ada sapa2 datang offer nak tolong tenangkan baby. Sungguh tak ku paham.

Cukuplah seminggu (5 days to be exact) dok dengan mak mentua. Macam2 tak leh buat. Ada je pantang larang. Buah betik tak leh makan (padahal buah betik lah kegemaran aku, nak2 bila rasa macam nak sembelit). Dia kata sejuk, tak elok. Apa yang sejuk, aku pun tak tahu. Setahu aku, buah semua memang sejuk, sebab buah banyak air. Mana ada buah yang panas, yang kering? Sebab tu lah diet elok makan buah sebab kandungan air dia banyak, dan elok utk digestion. Entah. 

Aku mengadu gak sikit2 dengan hubby pasal cara they all jaga aku berpantang, tapi tak berani comment banyak la, cuma bab2 tu le lah aku tak suka.

Yang lain, semua tip top. Mandikan baby, dari hari pertama  aku duduk rumah mentua, sampai ke hari akhir aku kat sana, sekali pun aku tak mandikan baby. Semua they all yang mandikan. Bab2 tuam2 perut baby, memang tip top. Pendek kata, bab2 penjagaan baby memang impressive. Thanks to them.

Bila turn aku, memang teruk , sebab aku ni species tak berpantang punye orang. Aku percaya science, bukan tahyul. Jadi banyak lah bende yang jadi conflict bila mak mentua aku cuba nak suruh aku ikut rentak dia berpantang. Sesekali aku bersuara juga, sebab aku tak tahan.Antibiotics semua dah makan, complete, setakat ni luka semua dah complete sembuh, cuma contraction tu ada lagi, biasalah, 6 weeks baru uterus kita go back to normal size, so right now memang lah contracting. Thanks to myself yang banyak membaca dan bertanya dengan doctor. Kalau ikut orang tua, selagi sakit, selagi itu kene baring, dok atas tilam, tak leh gerak.

Bagi aku plak, kalau tak gerak, darah tak berjalan. Nanti jadi macam2 penyakit. Tu yang mentua nampak aku segar semacam, macam2 bende aku buat, basuh baju baby, menyapu, tolong they all masak, sebab aku nak buktikan yang kepercayaan karut they all tu tak betul, dan tak relevant dengan zaman modern sekarang.

Akhirnya, kakak ipar aku sorang bersuara. Dia sependapat dengan aku. Dia pun rimas mak dia suruh pantang teruk2. Habis je 40 hari, kakak ipar aku ni nak lah berjalan2, bawak baby keluar pegi rumah sedara mara, mak mentua aku bising...dia kata tak elok... budak kecik lagi, takut kene sampok hantu la... macam2...

aku dengar je keluhan kakak ipar aku tu... aku senyap je...no comment...

Apa2 pun, tu mak dia..kalau aku cakap bukan2 nanti, sure sampai ke telinga mak mentua aku, susah plak aku nanti..

Itu lah ceritanya....

But overall, it's a great experience. Lepas ni, kalau aku ada baby lagi, aku tahu apa nak buat...

BABY's HERE!!

The "D" Day finally arrived.


Saturday 22 May 2010
I felt nothing different today, as usual, get out of bed, make breakfast for everyone, and do normal routines and house chores. We went out to buy come groceries, to top up our fridge so that when Monday (my admission date as set by my gynie) comes, we all will be having food stocked up and no need to get out too much.
So we went to East Coast Mall for our so called "Last Shopping Spree" before the baby arrives.
When we got home, I felt tired as usual, took an afternoon nap.
Comes night time, I was feeling very much alive, as usual because I love accompanying hubby watching football match. That night, it was InterMilan Vs Bayern Munich for the final UEFA cup. So we watched the match together.
Noah , as usual do his favourite weekend routines, drawing and looking at fun activity books we bought for him.
Then came 11pm, I felt some contraction. It was not painful at first. I ignored it. Then 12pm, another contraction. Slightly painful, and I felt uncomfortable. I told hubby, if the contraction is very strong we might have to go to the hospital whatever the time is.
Then at 2pm, the contraction is more frequent, comes in every 10 minutes or so, but not that painful. I told hubby, wait, coz it's not tha painful yet. So we decided to wait until the match finishes, then we go.
Came 3pm, i couldnt sleep. The contraction became a lot stronger and more painful. I feel the baby moving constantly too, so I dont know which is which, contraction that triggers the pain or the baby moving.

Then at 4pm, we decided, that's it. We need to go to hospital.
Once we reached there, I was pushed on a wheel chair and greeted by 2 senior Midwives. They are very kind people and understands every need of a labouring women. They did and ECG (i dont know what it stands for, but basically its a machine that detects contractions and baby's heart beat), and they confirmed my contraction is 10 minutes apart, but not that strong yet. They called my gynie, Dato' Goh.

To my suprise, in about 1/2 hour, the doctor came to my ward room and held my hand and tell me that the baby is coming, so we will do the ceaserean section for you now. Everyone is ready. I looked at the watch, it was 5.50am in the morning.
I was dressed up for operation, in 10 minutes, I was already on the operating table. Another doctor, Dr Siva greeted me, and told me that he is the Anaesthethic Specialist who is going to put me under anaesthetic. He inserted a few needles on my spinal bone, and I could tell that he gave up. He apologised to me a few times, for having to bear the pain and the time taken for epidural procedure was too long. Then after 3-4 attempts, he said he is going to put me to sleep for the operation to continue. They put me to sleep.
That's all I can remember. The rest was blank, nothing.

That same day, afternoon, I woke up. I heard a few voices asking me to wake up, saying that I am safe and the baby is safe. I woke up, feeling completely drugged and dizzy.
I asked "can I see my baby? " and Dato Goh was by my side when I woke up.
He told me "you lost a lot of blood, and now you are in the ICU, they cannot bring the baby up here in the ICU.". Then I asked for my husband.
Dr Siva also was by my side when I woke up, and he said, "Puan, I am happy that you are okay.. take a rest and you will see your baby very soon.."
I was relieved when I managed to talk to my husband, about my baby and my condition.
I was in ICU for almost 24 hours.

Sunday 23 May 2010
In the afternoon, after Dato' Goh and Dr Siva visited me in ICU, both agreed to let me be in my own ward. I was jolted with joy, because i can see my baby! Finally!!
So i was transferred into normal ward, a single bed ward, and my hubby was already there when I arrived.
The nurse quickly bring my baby to me and I am more happier.
I spent a few more days recovering, with my baby being taken care of in the nursery and with hubby and Noah sleeping with me in the ward that helps me gaining my strength back.

The baby is finally here, and now today I am back in my own home. My home is in a big mess, but what the heck, I have a baby and lovely family, and baby is safe and sound. I can handle messy home for a while...
Everyone is happy!!!
We are naming my new family member, Tengku Aaron Zuhayr Abbas......

BABY IS COMING IN 2 WEEKS TIME

I met my gynie, as usual today.
He wasnt as chirpy as usual coz he had a cold.
But what was certain is that my baby is coming in 2 weeks time.
I am so happy.
He recommends for ceaserean section, since my history was the same with Noah.
But he said, come back on the 24th May, see where the position of the baby is, then we decide.
As of today, my baby decended already to the pelvic area.
I am so happy, and relieved and scared all at the same time.


Happy to hear that baby is coming very soon.
Relieved so that I can see my feet again, can sleep on my stomach again..
Scared of the delivery of the baby, coz my Pain treshold is not that high.


Whatever it is, my hubby is the most happiest, coz he cant wait to hold the baby. All the while he has been feeling baby kicks and wiggles on my belly. 


I was looking at my new babies clothing in the nursery today, and I felt so happy.. Finally!!!


I was looking back at the bag I packed last 2 months to see what I have not packed yet for my hospital stay.
Socks, kain sarung, t-shirts, my nightgowns, nursing bras, nursing pads, the breast pumps are all there.


Baby's bag is also being packed 1 month back, I looked at it back. See what I have missed out. I think not much.
Finally, I will check what needs to be washed, the baby cot's bedding, pillows, blankets... all the last minute preparation before the baby arrives. 


After 25 of May, I wont be able to move so much, and I will be very occupied with the new baby.
Cant wait!!