Heart burn.......

I have been having some heartburn I think, based on the books I have read. That sore sensation along my throat when I swallow something spicy or hard.
I have been having that sensation since last week, and I am a little worried.
I cant sleep for the past few nights, feeling uncomfortable and feeling very warm too.
Hubby said I should see the doctor, and I am seeing him today.

Worries

I am bit worried right now.
Kemaman is not to be touched. That's what I think the management wants.
So what am I supposed to do now?
Just sit around doing nothing?
Wow..that's gonna be a bit scary.

I asked Shah Alam whether I could help out with anything.
They shut me down.
The big boss sort of like wondering why I keep on seeing him,
As if like I am knocking on the doors that doesnt want to be knocked.
I am a little confused.

The last meeting I had with Shah Alam was a few months ago.
Nothing ever came out.
Except that they gave me an ultimatum.
"if you want ton join us, you have to move to Shah Alam"
I thought the statement was a bit shallow for a big boss to say.
Coz my works and client based are all here in East Coast.
Why should I move to Shah Alam?
The answer is very simple.
The big boss doesnt know much about marketing. He is still learning and refused to acknowledge that.
Or he purposely say that so that I stop bothering him.

Looking at other companies, they will put one rep in East Coast.
It's either they share office from other company or they work from home, it's normal.
Once contacts and business are established, they will rent out a space and make a small office.
That kind of establishment is normal for East Coast area.
I know that, coz I was doing that when I was hired under another company before this.
They pay RM1k monthly to a subsidiary which already have an office in Gebeng, for my usage of the office facilities.
Then I run everything on my own.
All coordinators and project people are in KL, I operate here in Kuantan on my own, using phones, internet and all sorts of modern technologies to make our life easier.
We never had problems with those, everything runs very smoothly.

So I dont see the distance as a problem.

So why these idiots are very narrow minded?

THE DILEMMA

Being married is a wonderful thing.
Being a mother is a true blessings.
But being married but not happy is not a good thing.
Being a mother without proper children up bringing will be a pitiful thing.

So, why be married?
So why be a mother?
Why waste the time?
Why waste the energy?

I think simply because it's all worth it!

A NEW BEGINNING

I have been thinking for so many years what I am going to do with my life.
I have been tossing and turning in my bed, everytime I go to sleep of what if I take some risks.
Those risks that are not so damaging to my career, in fact it can boost my self esteem and my financial freedom.
A risk that can have a greater impact in my future.
Or even for my own self worth.

Why Not?
Why cant I be successful like others I know?
I think I can do it too.
Maybe I should start small.

A journey of a thousand steps, always starts with a single step.
That's what I did.
I have made the first steps.
So now, I will have to work harder for the next few steps.

New beginning of everything is never easy.
Success doesnt come in overnight.
If I put efforts into what I do,
Everything should come in, Insyaallah.

Maybe having this baby in my tummy at 7 months now have a great blessing from Allah.
Maybe seeing that I have expand my family, I should take some risks.
Not for anybody else, it's for my own children.

No wonder a lot of people saying that having a child is a blessing.
Blessings that some people never noticed.
But I noticed it.

I have made the first steps...
Now the second step to follow.
May Allah bless me and my family for this journey I take.

But whatever I do,
I need to be honest in my dealings.
Honesty have alot of friends.
I will try my best to keep that sacred Honesty Policy of mine throughout this journey.
May Allah give me strength...
Aaaammmiiiinn...