BABY AARON - 3 weeks old

We named him Tengku Aaron Zuhayr Abbas

Born: 23 May 2010 @ 6:54am

Weight: 3.69kg, Length: 50cm

My little honey is now 3 weeks old. These photos was taken when he was 2 weeks old.

Punye la susah nak berpantang dengan Mak Mentua. Bukan apa... masing2 suara ala2 macam loudspeaker, bila bercakap, punye lah kuat, baby asyik terperanjat je. Bila terperanjant, baby mengamuk, menangis. Bab2 tu, tak de lah plak ada sapa2 datang offer nak tolong tenangkan baby. Sungguh tak ku paham.

Cukuplah seminggu (5 days to be exact) dok dengan mak mentua. Macam2 tak leh buat. Ada je pantang larang. Buah betik tak leh makan (padahal buah betik lah kegemaran aku, nak2 bila rasa macam nak sembelit). Dia kata sejuk, tak elok. Apa yang sejuk, aku pun tak tahu. Setahu aku, buah semua memang sejuk, sebab buah banyak air. Mana ada buah yang panas, yang kering? Sebab tu lah diet elok makan buah sebab kandungan air dia banyak, dan elok utk digestion. Entah. 

Aku mengadu gak sikit2 dengan hubby pasal cara they all jaga aku berpantang, tapi tak berani comment banyak la, cuma bab2 tu le lah aku tak suka.

Yang lain, semua tip top. Mandikan baby, dari hari pertama  aku duduk rumah mentua, sampai ke hari akhir aku kat sana, sekali pun aku tak mandikan baby. Semua they all yang mandikan. Bab2 tuam2 perut baby, memang tip top. Pendek kata, bab2 penjagaan baby memang impressive. Thanks to them.

Bila turn aku, memang teruk , sebab aku ni species tak berpantang punye orang. Aku percaya science, bukan tahyul. Jadi banyak lah bende yang jadi conflict bila mak mentua aku cuba nak suruh aku ikut rentak dia berpantang. Sesekali aku bersuara juga, sebab aku tak tahan.Antibiotics semua dah makan, complete, setakat ni luka semua dah complete sembuh, cuma contraction tu ada lagi, biasalah, 6 weeks baru uterus kita go back to normal size, so right now memang lah contracting. Thanks to myself yang banyak membaca dan bertanya dengan doctor. Kalau ikut orang tua, selagi sakit, selagi itu kene baring, dok atas tilam, tak leh gerak.

Bagi aku plak, kalau tak gerak, darah tak berjalan. Nanti jadi macam2 penyakit. Tu yang mentua nampak aku segar semacam, macam2 bende aku buat, basuh baju baby, menyapu, tolong they all masak, sebab aku nak buktikan yang kepercayaan karut they all tu tak betul, dan tak relevant dengan zaman modern sekarang.

Akhirnya, kakak ipar aku sorang bersuara. Dia sependapat dengan aku. Dia pun rimas mak dia suruh pantang teruk2. Habis je 40 hari, kakak ipar aku ni nak lah berjalan2, bawak baby keluar pegi rumah sedara mara, mak mentua aku bising...dia kata tak elok... budak kecik lagi, takut kene sampok hantu la... macam2...

aku dengar je keluhan kakak ipar aku tu... aku senyap je...no comment...

Apa2 pun, tu mak dia..kalau aku cakap bukan2 nanti, sure sampai ke telinga mak mentua aku, susah plak aku nanti..

Itu lah ceritanya....

But overall, it's a great experience. Lepas ni, kalau aku ada baby lagi, aku tahu apa nak buat...

BABY's HERE!!

The "D" Day finally arrived.


Saturday 22 May 2010
I felt nothing different today, as usual, get out of bed, make breakfast for everyone, and do normal routines and house chores. We went out to buy come groceries, to top up our fridge so that when Monday (my admission date as set by my gynie) comes, we all will be having food stocked up and no need to get out too much.
So we went to East Coast Mall for our so called "Last Shopping Spree" before the baby arrives.
When we got home, I felt tired as usual, took an afternoon nap.
Comes night time, I was feeling very much alive, as usual because I love accompanying hubby watching football match. That night, it was InterMilan Vs Bayern Munich for the final UEFA cup. So we watched the match together.
Noah , as usual do his favourite weekend routines, drawing and looking at fun activity books we bought for him.
Then came 11pm, I felt some contraction. It was not painful at first. I ignored it. Then 12pm, another contraction. Slightly painful, and I felt uncomfortable. I told hubby, if the contraction is very strong we might have to go to the hospital whatever the time is.
Then at 2pm, the contraction is more frequent, comes in every 10 minutes or so, but not that painful. I told hubby, wait, coz it's not tha painful yet. So we decided to wait until the match finishes, then we go.
Came 3pm, i couldnt sleep. The contraction became a lot stronger and more painful. I feel the baby moving constantly too, so I dont know which is which, contraction that triggers the pain or the baby moving.

Then at 4pm, we decided, that's it. We need to go to hospital.
Once we reached there, I was pushed on a wheel chair and greeted by 2 senior Midwives. They are very kind people and understands every need of a labouring women. They did and ECG (i dont know what it stands for, but basically its a machine that detects contractions and baby's heart beat), and they confirmed my contraction is 10 minutes apart, but not that strong yet. They called my gynie, Dato' Goh.

To my suprise, in about 1/2 hour, the doctor came to my ward room and held my hand and tell me that the baby is coming, so we will do the ceaserean section for you now. Everyone is ready. I looked at the watch, it was 5.50am in the morning.
I was dressed up for operation, in 10 minutes, I was already on the operating table. Another doctor, Dr Siva greeted me, and told me that he is the Anaesthethic Specialist who is going to put me under anaesthetic. He inserted a few needles on my spinal bone, and I could tell that he gave up. He apologised to me a few times, for having to bear the pain and the time taken for epidural procedure was too long. Then after 3-4 attempts, he said he is going to put me to sleep for the operation to continue. They put me to sleep.
That's all I can remember. The rest was blank, nothing.

That same day, afternoon, I woke up. I heard a few voices asking me to wake up, saying that I am safe and the baby is safe. I woke up, feeling completely drugged and dizzy.
I asked "can I see my baby? " and Dato Goh was by my side when I woke up.
He told me "you lost a lot of blood, and now you are in the ICU, they cannot bring the baby up here in the ICU.". Then I asked for my husband.
Dr Siva also was by my side when I woke up, and he said, "Puan, I am happy that you are okay.. take a rest and you will see your baby very soon.."
I was relieved when I managed to talk to my husband, about my baby and my condition.
I was in ICU for almost 24 hours.

Sunday 23 May 2010
In the afternoon, after Dato' Goh and Dr Siva visited me in ICU, both agreed to let me be in my own ward. I was jolted with joy, because i can see my baby! Finally!!
So i was transferred into normal ward, a single bed ward, and my hubby was already there when I arrived.
The nurse quickly bring my baby to me and I am more happier.
I spent a few more days recovering, with my baby being taken care of in the nursery and with hubby and Noah sleeping with me in the ward that helps me gaining my strength back.

The baby is finally here, and now today I am back in my own home. My home is in a big mess, but what the heck, I have a baby and lovely family, and baby is safe and sound. I can handle messy home for a while...
Everyone is happy!!!
We are naming my new family member, Tengku Aaron Zuhayr Abbas......

BABY IS COMING IN 2 WEEKS TIME

I met my gynie, as usual today.
He wasnt as chirpy as usual coz he had a cold.
But what was certain is that my baby is coming in 2 weeks time.
I am so happy.
He recommends for ceaserean section, since my history was the same with Noah.
But he said, come back on the 24th May, see where the position of the baby is, then we decide.
As of today, my baby decended already to the pelvic area.
I am so happy, and relieved and scared all at the same time.


Happy to hear that baby is coming very soon.
Relieved so that I can see my feet again, can sleep on my stomach again..
Scared of the delivery of the baby, coz my Pain treshold is not that high.


Whatever it is, my hubby is the most happiest, coz he cant wait to hold the baby. All the while he has been feeling baby kicks and wiggles on my belly. 


I was looking at my new babies clothing in the nursery today, and I felt so happy.. Finally!!!


I was looking back at the bag I packed last 2 months to see what I have not packed yet for my hospital stay.
Socks, kain sarung, t-shirts, my nightgowns, nursing bras, nursing pads, the breast pumps are all there.


Baby's bag is also being packed 1 month back, I looked at it back. See what I have missed out. I think not much.
Finally, I will check what needs to be washed, the baby cot's bedding, pillows, blankets... all the last minute preparation before the baby arrives. 


After 25 of May, I wont be able to move so much, and I will be very occupied with the new baby.
Cant wait!!

Heart burn.......

I have been having some heartburn I think, based on the books I have read. That sore sensation along my throat when I swallow something spicy or hard.
I have been having that sensation since last week, and I am a little worried.
I cant sleep for the past few nights, feeling uncomfortable and feeling very warm too.
Hubby said I should see the doctor, and I am seeing him today.

Worries

I am bit worried right now.
Kemaman is not to be touched. That's what I think the management wants.
So what am I supposed to do now?
Just sit around doing nothing?
Wow..that's gonna be a bit scary.

I asked Shah Alam whether I could help out with anything.
They shut me down.
The big boss sort of like wondering why I keep on seeing him,
As if like I am knocking on the doors that doesnt want to be knocked.
I am a little confused.

The last meeting I had with Shah Alam was a few months ago.
Nothing ever came out.
Except that they gave me an ultimatum.
"if you want ton join us, you have to move to Shah Alam"
I thought the statement was a bit shallow for a big boss to say.
Coz my works and client based are all here in East Coast.
Why should I move to Shah Alam?
The answer is very simple.
The big boss doesnt know much about marketing. He is still learning and refused to acknowledge that.
Or he purposely say that so that I stop bothering him.

Looking at other companies, they will put one rep in East Coast.
It's either they share office from other company or they work from home, it's normal.
Once contacts and business are established, they will rent out a space and make a small office.
That kind of establishment is normal for East Coast area.
I know that, coz I was doing that when I was hired under another company before this.
They pay RM1k monthly to a subsidiary which already have an office in Gebeng, for my usage of the office facilities.
Then I run everything on my own.
All coordinators and project people are in KL, I operate here in Kuantan on my own, using phones, internet and all sorts of modern technologies to make our life easier.
We never had problems with those, everything runs very smoothly.

So I dont see the distance as a problem.

So why these idiots are very narrow minded?

THE DILEMMA

Being married is a wonderful thing.
Being a mother is a true blessings.
But being married but not happy is not a good thing.
Being a mother without proper children up bringing will be a pitiful thing.

So, why be married?
So why be a mother?
Why waste the time?
Why waste the energy?

I think simply because it's all worth it!

A NEW BEGINNING

I have been thinking for so many years what I am going to do with my life.
I have been tossing and turning in my bed, everytime I go to sleep of what if I take some risks.
Those risks that are not so damaging to my career, in fact it can boost my self esteem and my financial freedom.
A risk that can have a greater impact in my future.
Or even for my own self worth.

Why Not?
Why cant I be successful like others I know?
I think I can do it too.
Maybe I should start small.

A journey of a thousand steps, always starts with a single step.
That's what I did.
I have made the first steps.
So now, I will have to work harder for the next few steps.

New beginning of everything is never easy.
Success doesnt come in overnight.
If I put efforts into what I do,
Everything should come in, Insyaallah.

Maybe having this baby in my tummy at 7 months now have a great blessing from Allah.
Maybe seeing that I have expand my family, I should take some risks.
Not for anybody else, it's for my own children.

No wonder a lot of people saying that having a child is a blessing.
Blessings that some people never noticed.
But I noticed it.

I have made the first steps...
Now the second step to follow.
May Allah bless me and my family for this journey I take.

But whatever I do,
I need to be honest in my dealings.
Honesty have alot of friends.
I will try my best to keep that sacred Honesty Policy of mine throughout this journey.
May Allah give me strength...
Aaaammmiiiinn...